I’ve made some pretty major changes in the past few years. But as I approach the age where exercise is no longer optional, and I have to make the dreaded, “lifestyle change” when it comes to food, I am evaluating my approach and relationship with food.
I always thought that I had escaped the typical female woes about food. No I don’t turn to chocolate when times are tough, no, I don’t have a sweet tooth, I don’t eat with my emotions, nor do I eat because I have some control issue. I just loved food unconditionally. And cooking was the perfect hobby: creative, social, delicious.
Well, things have changed. My body is failing me. I’ve lived too well. Time to pay up.
So here’s my initial list of food hangups:
1. I’m a stress non-eater. I need to capitalize on this while somehow keeping my sanity and my blood pressure low.
2. I still think that I can eat as much as I could 5 years ago. Nope.
3. I eat fast. (When did THAT happen?)
4. Sometimes, when I wait too long to eat, I get too hungry, and that’s when I get sleepy. (Wish I figured this out years ago)
5. I don’t have any more vices, so I really enjoy food. No time for wack junk food. (upside, no fast food)
6. Living solo: When I am out on the road, I don’t have my network of friends. Unfortunately, it’s afforded me the luxury of not being afraid to go out and eat alone in a restaurant. Because 5, I tend to go to nice restaurants, where the food is so good, as someone with no self-discipline, this never ends well.
7. My job. It makes all of the above happen. Because it’s so stressful, I don’t eat, and I get too hungry and over eat. And because I have stopped drinking, there’s no decompressing over a cocktail after a really stressful day. It basically leaves dinner as the only thing to look forward to, so I really fucking enjoy dinner.
8. I get hangry. (When did that happen?!)
9. Working out isn’t fun anymore after a 12 hour day. (Whine. weak excuse)
10. I let my cravings dictate what and when I eat. (Epiphany)
11. Back to my job - when I get put in a good city, I feel like I need to hit all the great spots to eat in order to get the most out of where I am getting sent to work. Food FOMO, if you will. This is how I came back from the healthiest state in the country 20lbs heavier. I tried to eat All of the Foods in San Francisco and the south bay area.
So that’s my initial musings on food. I will be practicing how to eat mindfully so that I can really get in tune with how I approach eating. Some things I just have to remember:
1. I’m never as hungry as I feel I am.
2. I don’t need to eat like a frat boy, no matter how much I think I want those pizza rolls.
3. I must eat regularly. I don’t mean 6 meals a day, but I do need to eat on a schedule.
4. Sane person breakfast. Not every day is hangover brunch.
5. No large sizes of anything.
6. No apps, sides, or anything “just to taste it” No more having servers say, “are you ordering for someone else?”
7. I should not live by my stomach’s cravings.
8. Eat slower.
9. Eat less. I’m not a guy. I cannot eat everything in sight.
10. Make peace with greens and veggies.
That’s a start of my thinking about me and food. I’m not sure what I have to do to rectify my situation, but I think this might be a starting point.